I am perpetually tired. Like I literally can feel bags forming underneath my eyes (which I never get) and I don’t have the slightest bit of energy. The reason? Simply because I am not getting sleep. Or enough sleep, rather. However, it’s totally not my fault. Last night I got into bed before 12, absolutely exhausted, but didn’t end up falling asleep until after 3. And I blame my allergies 100%.
For whatever reason, I am allergic to my bed. That sounds absolutely crazy. I know, I know. But every night as soon as I lie in my bed, my allergies completely get out of hand. My nose runs, my throat (sometimes) becomes irritated, and my eyes become so itchy that I rub them to the point where they feel like they’re bleeding. Last night it got so bad that I decided I needed to find another place to sleep. Only problem? There was NOWHERE. My brother’s bed is (a) slept in every night by my dog, which would only make my allergies worse considering I’m allergic and (b) has blinds that don’t close properly so you wake up super early with the sun. Then there’s the living room and den couches which wouldn’t work because (a) my dog has been on them and (b) I would be awoken by my dad getting ready for work at 6AM. The basement is a complete NO because of my allergies. I seriously contemplated sleeping outside last night, but ruled that out because I didn’t want bugs crawling on me or raccoons attacking me in my sleep. Lol.
So I literally just sat in a chair staring at a wall for a solid 10 minutes last night, not knowing where I could possibly sleep. Eventually I went back into my bed, because I had nowhere else, and just laid there for 2+ hours. It was torturous. The worst part is that I knew how tired I was, but I just couldn’t fall asleep.
It is very rare for me to not set an alarm. Whether or not I have anything to do the next day, I usually set a 10 or 11AM (if I’m feeling super run-down) alarm so that I can guarantee I’ll be up by then. (The thought of waking up in the afternoon revolts me.) Last night, however, because of my extreme exhaustion, I didn’t set an alarm and was ready to sleep in until 1PM if I had to; I was just so exhausted. Well, I ended up waking up at 10:15. There I was thinking I would need at least 12 hours of sleep to get back to anywhere near normal, and I got less than 7. I don’t know if I woke up naturally or to my dog barking, but I think it was the latter.
I am so tired, have no energy, and am so sick of being allergic to my house. That’s basically what I am. Allergic to my house. Or air. Or life. Idk! Either way, this is not fun.